Polynesians Pray Hard

After a LONG weekend- I made it to Monday!  

So, let me backtrack a little.  When everything went down on Friday-  I was crazzzzy emotional.  Thanks, estrogen drugs!  I just wanted to say that I was never fearing that they were finding cancer.  My biggest fear was having to cancel the frozen transfer and have to go down a road that I don't even want to approach.   Did the fact that whatever the radiologist was seeing/feeling could be something bad like cancer go through my mind- of course!  The radiologist was very matter of fact and serious (that's her job- I know) but so serious that it just really scared me.  

The one thing that I did KNOW was that when Dr. G's office (fertility doc) did all my initial blood work- they checked EVERYTHING.  Everything from white blood count to if I was immune to chickenpox.  I know that sometimes even if everything checks out- you can still have problems- but rechecking all my lab results really helped to calm me down this weekend.  Oh- and that I got a blessing from Jon.  That was key :D  We talked to some family and let them know what was going on.  Jon's parents are in Hawaii (lucky ducks!) and they said they put our names in the temple there.  Then, Jon and I fasted on Sunday and fed the missionaries (that last part was planned like a month ago.. extra blessings!!).  

Anyways,  I went in today and the ultrasound tech was so nice!  She really helped me feel like it was okay.  She spent a lot of time doing the ultrasound and then went in and got the radiologist.  The same radiologist as Friday then did her own ultrasound on me... my immediate thought was... you couldn't have done this on Friday???  Because obviously the radiologist could do the ultrasound lol.... poor ultrasound tech just sat there... probably thinking "I just did all of this...."  She kept asking "Do you feel what we felt on Friday?"  All I could say was "I'll be honest, I don't know.  Everything feels the same like it always has.  Nothing hurts and nothing feels weird to me.  I've always thought it was just fat deposits."  All she said was "That could be"

Anyways, after about 45 mins- they concluded that there was nothing- maybe a cyst but nothing really visible.

A wave of relief just came over me.  Thankgoodness!!  I can't tell you how happy I was!  I wasn't going to have to cancel the FET or get a biopsy!  Woohoo!  

Thank you all for your love, support and prayers!  Also, a thank you to the Polynesians ;)  y'all pray hard!

So many wonderful things have happened today.  Not only all the stuff above.. but Jon's older sister and her family met their little girl, Mabel, in China today who they are adopting.  We are in love with her! I cannot wait to meet her (Ashlyn can't either- she keeps asking to see pictures of baby Mabel). So many happy feels today!    

Prayers needed

So, things have been a little emotional this past week.  Partially due to all the estrogen I'm taking - ha!  But... in all honesty, things have been a little nuts.

When I first started writing this blog I mentioned that I had to go in for a mammogram (because of my mom's history).  Well, it came back abnormal.  However, when I first got the call saying I needed to come back- all they said was that the pictures on one side were incomplete and I just needed to come back in to redo them and they didn't see anything.. well.. that wasn't the full truth.. so when I finally figured out that they did see something (yesterday)- that just freaked me out.  This isn't all that uncommon when you have your first one- they don't have any other baseline mammograms to compare it to.  Anyways, they rescheduled me for a 2nd mammogram and that was today.  I also need an ultrasound... but that's not until Monday.  Apparently they're short staffed on these types of ultrasound techs... awesome.  On the plus side, the ultrasound was originally scheduled for August 14th... so it at least got bumped up due to a cancellation.  Anyways, so today was the 2nd mammogram.  It was just as awkward as the first (didn't blog about that one because I figured it would just be TMI).

The radiologist tech took like 40 different pictures of my left side.  I'm not even joking.  I was there forever.  She kept going back and forth between doing pictures and consulting with the main radiologist (who wasn't in the room).  The 2nd to last time the tech left the room to consult with the radiologist- I lost it.  I started bawling my eyes out.  I was a total mess.  Seriously... it was a little pathetic- but I just couldn't pull myself together.  Anyways, the tech came back and I know she could tell I was blotchy and teary eyed.. but she didn't say anything.  Then we did more pictures.. and then she left again to see the radiologist and then the radiologist came in.  She was an older lady.  She immediately said "we think we found something".  The tech was dead silent.  The radiologist did her own exam on me and was like "oh yep.  Feel that??" and all I wanted to say was "No! You're nuts! There's nothing there!"  But... there it was- I felt it and I just started bawling.  The location where this is is way far back and can't be felt on a normal exam- she was like digging in around my armpit towards my chest (not in lymph node territory)... horrifying... you can't wear deodorant to the mammogram lol so you're like dying of embarrassment!   Then she started talking about how the ultrasound will hopefully show them what it is but we might have to do a needle biopsy.  What??? At that point I was just shaking and trying to hold back my tears.. failing.. but I was trying.

I then just blurted out - "but we're in the middle of doing a frozen embryo transfer!!" and she was like "can you hold off?"  Um.. I'm already on meds!! So, after Monday... we might have to cancel the FET.   I know that this could all be nothing.  I'm probably blubbering for no reason at all.  The fact of the matter is that I'm heart broken.  I'm scared.  Like... really scared.  

Anyways, keep me in your prayers.  I'm trying not to be a drama queen... but it is what it is lol.   I'm banking on it being nothing.  Here's to a weekend of being in panic... woo.  I still really don't understand why I couldn't go somewhere else to get an ultrasound.  I was in a hospital!  There are techs all over the place... humph.

I'm thinking mexican food is a must tonight.  Maybe ice cream.  Maybe both?  Kind've wishing I had set up a babysitter tonight.

Thanks all for your support!  We'll keep you posted!

Stuff just got real!

Went in to Doc. G's today for a quick appointment.  Ultrasound and bloodwork.  Nothing fancy.   Due to the nature of IVF- it's hard to have any exact dates ahead of time of when the transfer will be.  You can estimate.. but depending on how your body responds to medication- it can either be spot on- or really delayed.  The really hard part about that for us is the fact that Jon travels every week for work.  He has to book his travel 3 weeks in advance... and when we're looking at when the transfer *might* be... it's not exact and there is a possibility that he won't be able to be here for that.  I think I'd have a heart attack if he wasn't here for the transfer.   The nurse today said that transfer is typically around 20 days after you start medication.. so we're looking at the 2nd week in August.. maybe.  Here's to hoping that it will all work out!

A few hours after my appointment- my medications were delivered.  Most of it is familiar- but the injections are not.  This will be new.  Yes, I did injections before- but not progesterone injections.  I was hoping that he wouldn't have me do the injection type... oh well... guess I couldn't get out of giving myself shots that easily!  Rats!!  Sorry for the terrible picture... didn't take a picture until it was dark out.  Didn't want to have all this stuff out when the kiddos were awake.  :)

After all of that showed up- I received my instructions for how to proceed...  Meds start Saturday.

Crystal,

Dr. Griffith reviewed your results from today. You will take your last birth control pill today. No birth control pill tomorrow or going forward. You will start estrogen pills and patches on SATURDAY. See below. We will see you back in the office on Thursday, 7/23. Please call to schedule your appointment.

Your spouse will need to sign consents in office by your appointment on 7/23. 

Jenna

o Take/administer the following medication(s)

- Tue 07/14/2015: LAST BIRTH CONTROL PILL
o Desogen 1 Tablet, Take 1 daily by mouth as directed at the same time of day until instructed to stop.

- Sat 07/18/2015: START ESTROGEN
o Estrace 2 mg, take one tablet by mouth to dissolve under tongue THREE times per day
o Minivelle Patch 0.1mg 0.1 mg/dl, place 1 patch on the skin and change every 3 days

- Sun 07/19/2015: 
o Estrace 2 mg, take one tablet by mouth to dissolve under tongue THREE times per day

- Mon 07/20/2015: 
o Estrace 2 mg, take one tablet by mouth to dissolve under tongue THREE times per day

- Tue 07/21/2015: 
o Estrace 2 mg, take one tablet by mouth to dissolve under tongue THREE times per day
o Minivelle Patch 0.1mg 0.1 mg/dl, place 1 patch on the skin and change every 3 days

- Wed 07/22/2015: 
o Estrace 2 mg, take one tablet by mouth to dissolve under tongue THREE times per day

- Thu 07/23/2015: APPOINTMENT
o Estrace 2 mg, take one tablet by mouth to dissolve under tongue THREE times per day

o Return to clinic on Thursday Jul 23, 2015 for the following test(s): Follicular Ultrasound, Estradiol, LH and Progesterone

Breathing

Quick update-

Had my follow-up appointment with Dr. G.  Everything from surgery looks great!  There was an insurance question so we had to wait a few days to make sure we (us, doc and insurance) were all on the same page.  I called yesterday for confirmation and everything is a go!

My first appointment to start our FET is on Tuesday!

The only stinky part about next week is that because I'm 30- I have to start having mammograms.  That's on Monday.  Boo.  I know it's important- the thought of it really makes me nervous!!

Here we go!  Get ready, Snowbabies!  We're coming for ya! ;)