I took a step back from the blog because I was getting nervous. The last time I had written I had not found out the outcome of our transfer. I ran into the "what ifs"... what if I write about this whole IVF again and then it fails? I decided to step back and figured that if it failed then I would pick up at some other point or if it was a success, I'd pick back up when it was "safe".
Well, on January 21st (the day of my last post)- as I wrote, they called back with my blood work and told me to continue my meds. What I left out of that post was that my Dr. decided to run a pregnancy test. So after the nurse told me all looked good, she added... "and, there's more. We ran a pregnancy test." My heart was seriously going a million miles a minute. In the 2 seconds before she continued so many thoughts ran through my head. Surely they wouldn't be telling me to continue meds if it was negative- would they? She continued, "And it came back.. POSITIVE! Your levels are 85!!!!" I was only 6 days post transfer. I hadn't even caved and taken an at home test. I posted this on an IVF support group I'm apart of on facebook:
er.me.gersh!!! So I had to go into my dr's for blood work to check progesterone levels (I'm 6dp6dfet). Anyways, the nurse called and told me all my levels looked good and then she said.. "And... we ran a pregnancy test on you." I was just like.. "what???" (obviously not upset but just unexpected) and she said that I'm pregnant! She said levels were at 85! I'm still holding my breath here.. but I'm still in disbelief! This is our 3rd FET since August! My actual beta wasn't supposed to be until the 29th. So, we'll see what happens this upcoming week
I was in shock (I still am). I was still nervous. However, things moved right along. My hcg levels rose they way they were supposed to. On 11 days post transfer it was 799 and just kept going up!
On Feb. 4th (5wks pregnant) we had our first ultrasound and our pregnancy was confirmed and it showed that we were indeed pregnant with TWINS!! AGAIN!! Holy moly! We were elated, scared, nervous, happy, shocked.. every emotion good and bad haha. A 2nd set of twins!?!? Wow!!
There is so much to catch up on but I don't want to turn this into a novel and I will do my best to update as we go along here. I just wanted to talk about Alton and Ashlyn's story compared to our current story. When we first got pregnant with A&A the disney movie UP was a huge influence with our story. It still is. So many crazy emotions from that movie. Not only is infertility is quietly discussed in the first 15-20mins of the movie, they did it so thoughtfully. The movie was all about picking yourself up from hardships and keep moving, keep having adventures and not being afraid to let people in. We formed our little "grape soda club" which the new twins will also get their own pins :)
However, this time around, there is a new disney movie, Frozen, that I feel is very appropriate. A&A love this movie. We watch it often. Around when we transferred our snow babies we watched this movie and a line hit me hard. I know, so cliche and cheesy- but I really don't care! It's towards the end when Olaf finds Anna locked in a room in the castle by Hans. She is feeling hopeless and freezing. She is giving up hope. Then, out of nowhere, Olaf is roaming the castle and unlocks the door where she is and finds her in this state. He tries everything he can to help her, to get her warm, to give her hope. He lights a fire. She tells him to stop because he will melt. He looks back at her and says, "Some people are worth melting for". At that time, we didn't know if this transfer was going to work, but I felt a peace come over me (again, you area all probably rolling your eyes haha) and I knew that no matter what happened it would all be okay.
I can't tell you how thankful I am for this wonderful blessing. To know that our little family was "worth melting for" is humbling.
We are officially due on October 2nd, 2016.. but let's be real... I'm not making it that far!! :) Here is our official announcement!!!
